Ah, Well.....!

It seems i cannot really post until  i go through worse situations ! .. Well what happened was my MUM
read my PD !( personal diary :P) .. i know not a very good start ! .. well you can guess rest of the story .. i wrote in some of the darkest things about my life in that .. well that lead me to a chaos situation , evidently :P.... Im robbed off my phone because of this , threatens to stop my studies was what followed .... being a moaner that iam , started crying , apologies and stuff , but none of this seem to work , my dad used cuss words on me ... i had no choice but to bear all this ...... well as always my " fairy godmother " helped me again !!!! .... i plucked up the courage to face my dad and tell him what i truly feel ... i dunno how but i managed to write exam today !! now everything seems normal ! except for the fact that they dont trust me as much as they did before !!! ... :( actually its my fault so i dont really complain about that !... Amgonst all this my pillar of hope never lost faith in "good time will come soon"... Thanx for that honey pie ! it meant a lot .. i know you were abused to because of all this mess .... but thanx for standing there for me !!! ... :) Ah, well ... what i learnt finally was ... DONT TRY TO BULFF YOUR PARENTS.. coz' they will know !! best part il be lot more careful now :P

Its a MAgical Life !!!

Life truly is magical ... Surprises wait for you at every corner , the thing is you just miss them sometimes due to worldly reasons ! It feels so nice when you get what you always wanted to have , its just awesome to know someone is there for you !..
One day you feel its not worth a try , once you give it a shot , things come hopping around you !! My wish for a wave of that magic wand just came true ! When every puzzle piece is fitting perfectly into the board the only fear you have is loosing some of them ! *touch wood* which i don wana !!!
I hope this magical feeling lasts for ever ... and my fairy godmother watches me over for rest of my life , ready to wave that wand whenever im in trouble :P
............. Its A Magical , Fairy tale Life ......................................

FiCkle hEAd/HeArT !!!

Why is it so, hard to express what we feel ... Is it the fear ? or Ego that comes ?
Why is that there is always an "if "?..... Some situations that we face in life change the our view about similar aspects , once let down , we feel wel always be !!!... Why is that we can't conquer that and express what we truly feel ?!
If this is one case , i wonder why is that the other person who feels almost the same way ( well i hope he does) , express what he truly feels !!! ...
Well all this what Ive just mentioned are a few happenings of so called  l.i.f.e  ... How can a person be so confused about what he wants ?! Eyes can't hide feelings and emotions .. when its evidently seen whats going on why can't the person just understand ??.. or is he just pretending not to ..... 
Someone just said ... If the person who you valued the most is not there in your life anymore , he was never meant to see the happy ending ? If this is the case is there no value to a relation between people ... Is it always about letting go /?? ... If we go on let go off people , will we be left with anyone in the "end "???? Is it not the present we have in our hands , if we could put a little effort on the present , future comes soon enough !!!... 


Life is too short to keep letting go off people , and people who care and love you don't come knocking your door everyday !!.. and the people whom you care are too few to loose !!! .... Once you loose them all you will be left with is regret !!.. This is a little lesson i learnt and I hope few people learnt it too and start valuing the care they receive !!!!  Realize the importance of a person before they walk away :)

Clique :P

Well I don't really know why I'm calling this post "Clique"...' Cz it means closed group ! .. Basically we kina closed group during the THE TOUR ...
I loved the people with whom i hanged out the whole time !!!
In this post il put up pictures of 'em ... I hope they are friends for a life time :)

CSE gang ! 

dopplangers :P

10,000 feet .. rahul n pranzz

Venky !!!!!

SaiKy ....

cheeese

vinyasa !!!

vivek

Gal power ........

RAJEEV !!! ... Deekshith !!

:)

VENKY ... Santosh

Different versions of the same story !!

OK ... so, we were at college today , there was this volley ball match going on ... ( I was waiting for CSE and ECE's match .. they planned some fun thing !! :P ). All of a sudden this guy called stared hitting someone called Rakesh ( our Jnr ).. Rakesh ripped of Bilals shirt and all the GANG of so called friends of Bilal started smacking and punching Rakesh ... All this right in front of my eyes ... OMG !!
I was very curious about the story behind this fight , so , I started asking people what happend ,
Story 1:
Rajeev : Bilal provoked ( he used some other word i forgot ) this jnr guy .. he got pissed and spat back and the fight started !
Rahul : Bilal was tried to pull the book from Jnr guys hand and he said something fight started !
Randeer : Bilal and Jnr guy were writing in two different books ... Bilal tried to change something , then something happend , he pulled book from Jnr guy and he said something he smacked him , the other guy tore off his shrit and the rest of bilal's friends started hitting Jnr guy !!
While I was putting this up , Randeer texted me saying Punith also got hit in the fight and Abinav and gang (i.e, the Juniors) got involved !!! ...
These are the different versions of the same story ;) :P
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So, now that Im done mentioning about this ... I wana say a big big big Sorry to Rajeev and Venky !!!!! sorry guys :)

Tour #1

Im done with feeling down .. uff its just not "me"..!!! Not smiling for an entire day .. OMG , it was really hard !
Let me tell you what changed mah mind ... i was in this "trance state ", all of sudden i noticed Vivek ( my buddy ) he was sporting some ancient shirt , I started yelling at him for his crappy dressing .. all of a sudden a ball hit my head HARD !!! ... i was blank for a sec !! .. thats when i came to my senses !! :P ( jus kidding !!!).. basically Vivek and gang took me McD to cheer me up .... n looo i did cheer up ..
Enough of my change of mind , il talk about funny thing that happened.. Well on the first day of our tour we all went to visit "The India Gate".... Poser that iam started giving all kinds of poses for the photographs , i dragged rajeev and all to pose along with me ... we put on the devil horns and took pictures ... we created a scene of  murder ... i had a pic exclusively taken to put up as my FB profile pic !!! ... After all this effort the day when we reached shimla and were about t check out the pis we took , Pranita ( another friend of mine , complete fool !!).. pressed the delete button instead of next !! ... and woooosh went all the pics !! ....
All we were left were with a camera with no pics !!! :P ;)

All i need is a magic wand !

(WARNING : definitely yawn worthy ! read at your own risk ! )


Im back again posting about my " mind games "... First i thought il post things about the tour that i mentioned in my earlier post , but then i thought one post wont be enough so im skipping .. ( i may post sometime soon  : P).
So,...
Well my head is starting some kind off weird game again ... I try my best not to care about people and their damn attitude problem , but then again i do . I hate to be on the rejected side ...  1. I'm dumped , still i care. !
2. The person who I thought would be a good friend suddenly starts showing shades of grey and starts ignoring all of a sudden ( just in a day's span !! Aagrh ! ).. I try to hide , but guess it just shows on my face , which is most frustrating part , 'coz now my friends think I'm a drama queen !
I wish i had a shutdown system , shutting all this out for once and for all !.. i know i said the phrase " life's hard ? compared to what ?!" ... looks like I'm biting my words back now !..

All i need now is a magic wand ( i know this is kiddish, but..). I would transform everything into a fairytaleish picture in a jiffy !!! or a fairy godmother !!.. Or may be just a true friend to understand this aw so confused headed girl !!!  One thing Ive decided to do at the end of  this crapish  post , Il just ignore and stay focused ... And never ever expect anything from anyone from college !!!.. and the so, called " would be good friend ", u ignore me , well il do the same from now on !
 (I know this is the dumbest post that ive ever posted , but had to spill the poison out !!! ... )